Anonymous said: oh my goodness you are so cute and beautiful and classy and perfect looking wow <3
aaaah thank you darlin’ that is so very sweet. enjoy your day(✿◠‿◠)
i want to play you,selfie game.
everyone in this house knows i’ll get so mad if they kill a bug that’s hanging around. christopher comes up to our room and tells me about a spider he just saw and my face gets serious and i’m like DID YOU—-and he’s like I DIDN’T KILL IT. and i relax. last night we asked google if bugs have heart attacks because i started to really worry about it and we read all about bugs circulatory systems:
"Insects have a heart, sometimes, but no arteries or veins. They have an open circulatory system: all their organs just float in a goo called ‘hemolymph’ that is a combination of lymph and blood. Some insects, bees included, have a heart and an aorta (the vessel leading out of the heart) that pumps the blood and gives it some semblance of direction (from the back of the insect to the front), but beyond that there is no circulatory system. The heart floats in the hemolymph along with everything else. No way to stop it from receiving blood flow, because it’s surrounded by it.
"Furthermore, unlike human blood, insect blood doesn’t carry oxygen. They have a special network of tubes called trachea that provide oxygen: think of it having air vessels go from your lungs all throughout your body instead of blood vessels. Conceivably the trachea leading to an insect heart could all get blocked by something from the outside, which would be the closest thing to a ‘heart attack’ in an insect, but there’s no record of that happening and its unlikely anyway. So, nope, no insect can have a heart attack."
fascinating and a lil scary, i think.
the website we found was called BUG SQUAD. “happenings in the insect world.” and i was like………… yes.
i’ve been having really, really horrifying dreams. i meant to write down the one from last night but i didn’t and now it’s too late. it’s too late.
i’ve had samson by regina spektor on repeat for 30mins layin in bed in my undies with the sun shining in. so yea.
i have been SO daydreamy lately. daydreamy af.
it’s like. getting ready is enough, just preparing for the day exhausts me.
It’s like, my heart wants to visit a room it used to sleep in. It wants to go so, so, so bad.
One day I will walk inside.
I will be born again.
"If you’re feeling small today I dare you to sit up straighter, look someone who scares you directly in the eye, take up room at the dinner table, make yourself bigger, when ‘sorry’ laps at the back of your tongue, tries to pick up after you, remind yourself that your existence doesn’t demand an apology, that you are allowed to make mess and take up space, do not be afraid to expand. Every single goddamn minute. Expand, expand, expand"
"In order to be born from something you have to leave it."
I made a little Plant Horoscope for brand new zine, I’m Champagne!
Filled with self doubt, need a pick me up? Check out your horoscope, the plants can help you out.
The whole zine is about regaining and maintaining self worth. My very good pal Lauren Catchlove put it all together and a bunch of friends contributed and everything in it is wonderful!
Buy I’m Champagne on etsy here!
today has been exceptionally difficult
And I am not ready for this week.
I am not ready for anything.